pretentious title removed

This Is Just To Say

2008-05-07T04:42:57Z

I saw
the G2s
for which
you paid 3B

They now drop
off every pumpkin
I bought a pair
from GMS

Forgive me
I'm now in 300 symbs -
so strong
and so stamina-y.

==

I replaced
your spelling
of the Jewish guy's
name

which you had
probably
just looked up
on the internet

Forgive me
mine just looks better
so snooty
and so many vowels

==

I received
from that school
across the Bay
the fat envelope

that you had been
waiting
for since the 4th grade
Forgive me

It was just as awesome
as you had dreamed
so beautiful
and so Stanfordy

==

I seem to have erased
the budget surplus
that you left
at my House

Not quite sure
how it happened
Can't have been
the tax cuts

Forgive me
I must have been
in Baghdad
waving around my penis

worshipsf @ 2004-09-26T23:36:00

2004-09-27T06:36:09Z

words of a God

worshipsf @ 2004-09-26T23:35:00

2004-09-27T06:35:57Z

I swear to you, this is knowledge:

the child awake as the light goes out.

worshipsf @ 2004-09-26T23:08:00

2004-09-27T06:09:02Z

omg classes start tomorrow and i still haven't picked any...

Uh Oh

2004-09-10T14:52:10Z

I did the one thing that I promised not to do... the thing that, if it succeeds, is likely to kill my grades and my future.

I joined an ET clan. Okay... more like started one. At first it was just for fun, but now we may actually join a ladder and get into competition ET.

Alea iacta est. Please don't kill me.

worshipsf @ 2004-08-15T10:17:00

2004-08-15T17:17:51Z

There is just something about the Olympic Games that never fails to move me, despite the steroids and vote trading and superhuman condom depletion.

gg Olympic Dream. Zhongguodui jiayou!

McGreevey Rant

2004-08-13T05:00:39Z

New Jersey Gov. James McGreevey, who earlier this year said he opposed gay marriage, announced on August 12, 2004 that he will resign ... Governor McGreevey admitted that he had a homosexual affair and has been conflicted with his sexuality since adolescence ... "My truth is that I am a gay American," he said with his wife by his side at a nationally televised news conference. - Yahoo News

Of course gay people shouldn't marry each other, much better to marry someone of the opposite gender and have secret extramarital affairs instead.

Except that that's not being "gay". "Gay" is about more than just homoerotic feelings. It is about not allowing adversity to chase you from the path you know to be right, and about taking pride in having stared down that adversity and emerged in the end with a stronger sense of self and an intact sense of humor.

Governor McGreevey, you are not a "gay American." Your truth is that you are a spineless, sorry excuse for a human being who grasped that mantle in desperation after being threatened with blackmail. I hope you grow some balls after your resignation.

worshipsf @ 2004-08-11T13:05:00

2004-08-11T17:08:01Z

1. Do not think dishonestly.
2. The Way is in training.
3. Become acquainted with every art.
4. Know the ways of all professions.
5. Distinguish between gain and loss in worldly matters.
6. Develop intuitive judgement and understanding for everything.
7. Perceive those things which cannot be seen.
8. Pay attention to the smallest of details.
9. Do nothing which is of no use.

-Miyamoto Musashi's Go Rin No Sho (Book of Five Rings)

worshipsf @ 2004-08-10T23:38:00

2004-08-11T06:38:56Z

True friendships are built with AIM.

Little3Ears (11:29:27 PM): it has a mole!
unquantifiable (11:30:03 PM): it's a beauty mark, i'll have you know.
Little3Ears (11:31:35 PM): you're a beauty mark
unquantifiable (11:31:48 PM): i know you are but what am i?
unquantifiable (11:32:10 PM): or, my personal favorite,
unquantifiable (11:32:15 PM): i'm rubber, you're glue
unquantifiable (11:32:26 PM): whatever you call me bounces off and sticks to you.
Little3Ears (11:32:31 PM): if you insult me, i'll pee on you?
unquantifiable (11:33:19 PM): :-O
unquantifiable (11:33:22 PM): you win.
unquantifiable (11:33:38 PM): dammit, now there are two ways to win any argument with me.
unquantifiable (11:33:43 PM): the first one was
unquantifiable (11:33:52 PM): to look injured and say,
unquantifiable (11:34:00 PM): "are you calling me fat?"
Little3Ears (11:34:05 PM): lol
Little3Ears (11:34:07 PM): SCORE!
unquantifiable (11:34:10 PM): and then i crack up.
Little3Ears (11:34:39 PM): your butt injures me
Little3Ears (11:34:57 PM): it's just so bony
unquantifiable (11:35:03 PM): your mom's butt injures me.
Little3Ears (11:35:06 PM): :-O
unquantifiable (11:35:08 PM): ooh, burrrrn.
Little3Ears (11:35:09 PM): BUUUUUUURN!
Little3Ears (11:35:20 PM): RENEEDOR THE BURNINATOR!
unquantifiable (11:35:43 PM): burninating the...
unquantifiable (11:35:54 PM): helenside!
Little3Ears (11:36:30 PM): :-O :-O
Little3Ears (11:36:37 PM): omg, i can't take it anymore
Little3Ears (11:36:41 PM): you rule, i drool

worshipsf @ 2004-08-10T11:52:00

2004-08-10T15:58:58Z

Justin tells me that I am indeed a real lesbian, because I am not impressed with Angelina Jolie. Whew... I was almost worried there for a second.

In related news, I have recently discovered the radiance that is Ms. Eliza Dushku.

My life has meaning again.

worshipsf @ 2004-08-07T18:16:00

2004-08-08T01:17:00Z

Went to Atlantic City today and had some fun throwing away money... I try to tell myself that it wasn't just greed and the masochistic desire to inhale secondhand smoke for hours, but a way to truly get in touch with myself and this odd pasttime called life.

I almost believe it. I need to read this book again.

worshipsf @ 2004-08-04T16:02:00

2004-08-04T23:02:45Z

But I suppose it's pretty egotistical to think that I'm the only one who can rewrite history.

worshipsf @ 2004-08-04T15:19:00

2004-08-04T22:19:14Z

"36. Do you think you have ever truly been in love? Thought so once.. I?m not sure anymore. Love is a strong word."

This hurts more than I want to admit.

worshipsf @ 2004-07-26T14:50:00

2004-07-26T18:51:19Z

When I fail, they will say it's because of who I am. When I succeed, they will say it's in spite of who I am.

Of course I am bitter. Who wouldn't be?

worshipsf @ 2004-05-10T23:32:00

2004-05-11T06:32:50Z

It's amazing what time does to you. My thoughts, my life, myself... they're just stories I tell myself now to pass the days. These words were once people I loved. It blows my mind to think about it, and for a second, I am moved.

worshipsf @ 2004-03-16T21:54:00

2004-03-17T05:54:09Z

Haven't updated this thing in months... wow, where to start?

Oh, yeah, Collegiates... our team won Bronze for our group set (because of a technicality, but oh well.) GG us for scoring higher than other schools' Team As.

We actually had quite a few mistakes, big and small, so it's a wonder we scored so high (or is it? 8.60 from Zhang Laoshi...) All in all though, not too bad. And my scissors kick rocked. ;-)

Some pictures: http://www.stanford.edu/~nru/wushu/Collegiates2004-KCW/

worshipsf @ 2003-10-08T01:40:00

2003-10-08T08:40:49Z

And God saw every thing that he had made, and all that it had made from itself, saying "this have I done in your honor, you who gave me life and commanded me to live, Father, do I please you?"

And, behold, it was not pleasing to Him.

worshipsf @ 2003-07-13T08:33:00

2003-07-13T00:52:32Z

You know, as the summer progresses (much faster and less odiously than I had originally feared,) I can't help but have this uneasy feeling that I am spending too mcuh time in this surreal alternate existence of high throughput screening, video games, and debating the nature of homosexuality with my parents while my real life is leaving me behind.

Sometimes when I'm talking to people I wonder what the hell is going on because I must've been too busy checking stocks to really pay attention to the memo.

I wonder who it is exactly that will return to my "real life" after this weird summer is over.

worshipsf @ 2003-07-01T20:23:00

2003-07-02T03:23:39Z

Well, well, well. Come out to one's mother and the world rallies behind you... if I'd have only known. ;)

Score:
Queers 2
Pat, Laura, Bill, Jerry, Fred 0

Juvenalian Satire

2003-06-05T05:38:34Z

"The People's Republic" is what I tell those who ask me my
nationality when I'm traveling abroad, as I discreetly slip the
navy passport and cotton/linen dollars into my inside pocket -
better to be thought a Child of Mao than a warmongering jingoist.
In China the legislators don't reprint their menus when
a saner country objects conscientiously to their actions.
"I'd like some Autonomy Cheese with my toast, thanks."
Patriotism to them isn't buying a flag on 9/14 to wave for the neighbors
or cruising in the SUV shouting "God bless America!" as they pelt a
Sikh woman with rocks, wax drippings still soft on their shoes
from last night's candlelight vigil for the Trade Center fallen.
"Either With Us or Against Us," George? Who died and made you God
and decreed that your children deserve fathers and mothers
but not the children of those oil-hoarding diaper-head Iraqis?
O Father Abraham, how came your disciples to such hypocrisy?
You blame me, Jerry and Pat, for the degradation of this
Great country? Just the other day I came across Mighty Bill Bennett,
still clutching his colored plastic Bellagio chips as he scrawled across
my copy of The Book of Virtues. "Yes, well, I can handle it."
To preach the Gospel and decipher the purple triangle of the
PBS child-subverter Teletubby proclaims true patriotism.
Here's a man, cheeks flushed crimson with righteous
indignation, crying, "gays threaten the institution of marriage!"
as he gathers his beer and chips, ABC Wednesdays 9/8 central,
slobbering over the girls in the newest hour of "The Bachelor."
Cash is ass in Nevada: "Bunny Ranch, 2 mi., Viagra users welcome!"
But head south and east and it's tradition for a man to face Miranda,
squinting at clinking silver rings, if he dares kiss his boyfriend in
his own bedroom. "Silly faggot, only breeders can sodomize in Texas!"
Plastered with spit, my brothers and sisters are shipped home, stripped of
stripes and fatigues, because some joker yelled "queer!" in the mess hall.
Yet who is monitoring when bugles sound for the next Iraqi slaughter?
"Gay, huh? We'll discharge your ass - at the war's end, if there's
anything left of you worth sending home, you disgusting fag."
Is it Homeland Security we need, or a Homeland Reality Check?
Stocks are up, necklines are down, so off we go - American Pride! -
Big Macs, semi-automatics, and Britney music videos in tow,
spreading our first-world sickness to the less advanced peoples.

worshipsf @ 2003-05-30T00:10:00

2003-05-30T07:11:54Z

i feel like i have just lost something very very dear to me but for the life of me i cannot put a name to it

worshipsf @ 2003-05-23T20:45:00

2003-05-24T02:47:08Z

Sometimes my life is like a really bad movie. Except there is no rewind button.

worshipsf @ 2003-05-21T21:36:00

2003-05-22T03:37:59Z

Removed 8/14/04 because I'm feeling restless today and this entry was just dumb.

worshipsf @ 2003-05-20T18:16:00

2003-05-21T00:16:48Z

Saying something is different from knowing it. And knowing it is different from doing it.

I know this, of course. And yet I am surprised every time.

worshipsf @ 2003-05-15T18:15:00

2003-05-16T02:15:37Z

purple, green, grey
and purple once more

it wasn't supposed to be this way.

i wasn't supposed to be this way.

i feel so alone.